Suicide

In my opinion, the vast majority of humans will have suicide thoughts/ideations once or twice in their lifetime and some just do not know how to be honest or talk about this. Recognize this season can bring up a lot of pressure on the psyche to stimulate these thoughts.

Being aware is the first step, then speaking about the honest pressures your experiencing is the second, which will then create another step and another which you are worth taking.

We all experience challenges, and that's why talking with others that have non-judgement allows acceptance to release the pressure and for you to see it differently.
Meditation allows stress to dissolve.
Introspection creates awakening.
Exercise allows the energy to build.
Eating food as fuel allows clarity.
Being in nature brings connections in peace.

I can relate to the statement, "no one understands how HARD this is," yet one person does, and that is you. Yes, you understand, and by being honest about it, you discover the solutions you can create for yourself. There are so many out there that can relate to you allow yourself to open up the suffering.
We all have our breaking points, and before you break that glass for in case of emergency, ensure you have a plan for support.

Your human living a human experience, please take moments to be kind towards yourself.

YOU MATTER!
Take a deep breath.